Streaming

Some updates, then on to some ramblings! On the Art Front, I’ve been cleaning and reorganizing my art room (again, haha) and have found a great set up (although may turn the table to face the window, as that would add even more to the flow of the room…) and so have been doing a…

Hindsighting

So, New Year, New Me, right? No. Not accurate, for me. New year, yes. And certainly I’m not planning to stay stagnant (quite the opposite), but that doesn’t necessarily indicate a whole new me. I’ll just be modifying the same me that I already am. There are many reasons that I haven’t written in months….

Nuts and Bolts. And Volts.

Well. One week to go with the ECT treatments, so maybe it’s about time I finally write the entry I’ve been meaning to write for ages?! But first, some good news: I’m feeling somewhat confident that they have been helpful! By which I mean, I feel lighter. My boots aren’t as heavy. I’m not being…

Time Will Tell

How does anyone know what “normal” feels like? I don’t hate being asked how I’m doing- I hate not knowing how to answer this increasingly common question. I’ve obviously spent a significant amount of time doing seriously unwell. When every third thought involves ways to cease existing, I can say with confidence that I am…

Jumpstart

Well. I’ve been on a bit of a writing hiatus. Not for lack of words…I’ve actually started at least 2, maybe 3, blog posts over the past few months. 1 I just never finished and the other two got deleted before I had a chance to publish them and WordPress doesn’t have the best auto-save…

Unusual

It’s unusual that I don’t have words. That I’m having such a difficult time spewing out words in place of the confused, muddled thoughts that are in my head. That I can’t pretend I’m fine even if I’m not. I can’t even begin to express myself in any understandable fashion. That, too, is untrue I…

She used to be mine

Time continues to be nonsensical in my world. Words sometimes even more so. But here we are… I made my first sale at the Gallery. Barely enough for a candy bar, but I’m proud of it nonetheless. Also, towards the end of my last shift, PW and I were talking and he let me know…

Res…

Resolution…Resolve…Resign…Rescind. Knowing the beginning of a thing doesn’t guarantee that your prediction of the end is accurate. It’s been months since I’ve written. Not for lack of words or things to babble about, necessarily. Not that life has been super exciting, either, but there have certainly been events that I couldashoulda commented at length on,…

Retreatedly

Life has a certain way of sweeping the rug out from under your feet, even (or especially) when you weren’t aware you were even standing on a rug in the first place. You’re going along, minding your business, thinking that your feet are firmly on the floor and swoosh. When this happens, it’s often difficult…

Not Quite Later, Yet

So. Thus far, I’ve done a stellar job at keeping this blog pretty strictly art/creative endeavor related. And I briefly considered keeping it that way. I certainly have other outlets- online journals, paper journals, friends, therapy, pages dedicated to my poetry and the internal workings of my mind on this site, even. However, some things…